The body is our most tangible teacher, confidante and adventure buddy. It gives us joy and trouble, confidence and sorrow. A few disjointed jottings on this fabulous net of neurons, this house of spirit.
We have a fundamental right to our own emotions and wishes – but first we have to find out what they are!
Having emotions in charge of our lives makes us feel powerless. We become prone to thinking that there is some great answer out there, a grand solution, and that if we can just hit upon it, all will be well. In fact, a deeper self-knowledge and spiritual growth require simple and repetitive actions. It's helpful to think of training our self-perception in much the same way as we think of physical exercise.
In this brief sketch I can only describe what my faith is today. I know it will change again: sometimes from the corner of my eye I catch frightening glimpses of realisations to come, like the bends of a mountain road. God allows us to see what we are ready to see.
The more I love life, the more I fear death. This raises many questions, and the ego is not pleased. Isn’t it supposed to go the other way around? With a fuller appreciation of the nectar of life, are we not supposed to become aware that Life encompasses infinity, and hence death too?
Choice rarely comes into it, at first. It begins more with a sense of suffocation, panic or depression: ”If things don’t change, I will die.”